do you ever feel constantly overwhelmed sad and lonely and you feel so annoying telling anyone about it bc you feel like a broken record who’s looking for attention when in reality you just don’t even know what to do with yourself anymore
"I can’t stand it to think my life is going so fast and I’m not really living it." - Ernest Hemingway, The Sun Also Rises (via wordsnquotes)
8969) Losing people, not weight.
Lying to everyone again about not purging or using behaviors.
Sister knows I’ve purged in the past hour because I’m a fucking idiot and didn’t clean up properly.
Family are having take out for dinner and I refuse to even go near it. I just want to hurt myself really badly right now,
I should just top myself because it’d be so much easier than dealing with all of this and my pretend ‘recovery.’